AN/PVS-14
it's an odd little thing to the
unenlightened, who do not understand
the sheer wonder
that comes with being able to see
while the rest are blinded by night //
some say its folly
others say its a waste
still more say the money is better
spent elsewhere, or perhaps
even saved responsibly but
if i was responsible, this never
would have happened to me
and i would not have been so melancholy
as to stand on the edge
because i was irresponsible and let everything
come crashing down
i don't know if it was my fault
// falling into a hole
in a world of hurt off the edge
into the long quiet
but i needed to dig myself out
the little glowing window of hope appeared to me
on the last day of classes
where someone who (bless his heart) didn't know any better
decided to sell his AN/PVS-14 on ebay for
a price so heinously low
it appeared too good to be true
so i waited and worried and studied and and and
on the day of my PChem exam it arrived
and i was so overcome with joy
that in that moment,
a green little window opened up and //
nothing mattered. nothing could be done anymore.
i couldn't dig my way out of this hole and find gold at the
same time
but there was something more
because my friends were besides me.
i wasn't alone, and i don't know why it
felt the way it did
but there was finally an end
and when the long quiet came
and the withdrawals subsided
and i was stuck home alone
but at least i had my little green window of hope.