contentedness
i just can't keep
letting myself hurt
like this
over and over again
i can't seem to stop
fawning over someone
non-reciprocal feelings
that should be dedicated elsewhere
i see her and i hurt
over and over again
i want to stop
but i can't let go
its been 2 years again
and i just want
to be friends
but i keep on
opening up
old wounds
lying supine
waiting to bleed
why am i so
damn
broken
and why
do i insist on
bleeding out
agonizing pain
over someone
why can't i be happy with what i have?