Kat's Poetry Pile

hope pills

what a strange thing
to be happy for once in
a very long while!

to have hope for a future
more uncertain than ever
ignorance is bliss and i appear
to be cursed with knowledge

and it weighed me down
for the longest time
until i tried hope pills
and i realized to trust in the LORD
but also not to worry about

an unknowable future
the most meticulous plans shatter
on first contact with the enemy
so why bother doing more than sketching out
the bare minimum if the results become
inevitable disappointment?

so i stopped worrying
and let the pills do it's thing
forgetting to take them was
nearly catastrophic but
i mustn't take them all the time

or bad things could happen
i don't quite know what those
things are, and yet i somehow
don't care at all

hope pills returning me
to a wonderful state
of ignorant bliss