_rumination
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perhaps the greatest flaw that
often comes with intelligence
is thinking, not just regular-thinking
overthinking to the point
of no return
rumination: the act of thinking deeply about something
source: the oxford english dictionary
but in a psychological context
it refers to a cycle of negative thinking
getting stuck in a downwards spiraling loop of whys instead of hows
and for someone who lives,
breathes, and
would do anything to know
WHY
i am extremely prone to this.\
WHY did i turn out this way?
WHY did she leave me for her ex?
WHY can't i get out of bed?
WHY is my love for him gone?
WHY can't i get anything done
the more i think, the worse it gets.
and i simply cannot stop thinking.
because if i stop thinking i get
melancholy, so i cannot stop
thinking and chewing and grinding my own thoughts\
into the dust from which they came
i simply must know why im so miserable
but therein lies the problem
rumination starts the downwards spiral
but it doesn't end there\
im not a workaholic
but i cannot be idle
at all
otherwise i begin to ruminate
questioning everything to an unhealthy extent\
i can't let myself get there
but the alternative to rumination
comes halfway through the fall
through tartarus
apathy## _rumination
perhaps the greatest flaw that
often comes with intelligence
is thinking, not just regular-thinking
overthinking to the point
of no return
rumination: the act of thinking deeply about something
source: the oxford english dictionary
but in a psychological context
it refers to a cycle of negative thinking
getting stuck in a downwards spiraling loop of whys instead of hows
and for someone who lives,
breathes, and
would do anything to know
WHY
i am extremely prone to this.\
WHY did i turn out this way?
WHY did she leave me for her ex?
WHY can't i get out of bed?
WHY is my love for him gone?
WHY can't i get anything done
the more i think, the worse it gets.
and i simply cannot stop thinking.
because if i stop thinking i get
melancholy, so i cannot stop
thinking and chewing and grinding my own thoughts\
into the dust from which they came
i simply must know why im so miserable
but therein lies the problem
rumination starts the downwards spiral
but it doesn't end there\
im not a workaholic
but i cannot be idle
at all
otherwise i begin to ruminate
questioning everything to an unhealthy extent\
i can't let myself get there
but the alternative to rumination
comes halfway through the fall
through tartarus
apathy